My
dearest
Caroline
,
If
tears
,
which
you
____________________
and
know
I
am
not
apt
to
____________________
,
if
the
agitation
in
which
I
parted
from
you
,
agitation
which
you
must
have
perceived
through
the
whole
of
this
most
nervous
nervous
affair
,
did
not
commence
till
the
moment
of
____________________
you
approached
,
if
all
that
I
have
____________________
and
____________________
,
and
am
still
but
too
ready
to
say
and
do
,
have
not
sufficiently
____________________
what
my
real
feelings
are
and
must
be
ever
towards
you
,
my
love
,
I
have
no
other
proof
to
offer
.
God
knows
I
wish
you
happy
,
and
when
I
____________________
you
,
or
rather
when
you
from
a
sense
of
duty
to
your
husband
and
mother
quit
me
,
you
shall
____________________
the
truth
of
what
I
again
promise
and
____________________
,
that
no
other
in
word
or
deed
shall
ever
____________________
the
place
in
my
affection
which
is
and
shall
be
most
sacred
to
you
,
till
I
am
nothing
.
I
never
____________________
till
that
moment
,
the
madness
of
-
my
dearest
and
most
beloved
friend
-
I
cannot
express
myself
-
this
____________________
no
time
for
words
-
but
I
shall
have
a
pride
,
a
melancholy
pleasure
,
in
suffering
what
you
yourself
can
hardly
____________________
-
for
you
don
not
know
me
.
-
I
am
now
about
to
____________________
out
with
a
heavy
heart
,
because
-
my
appearing
this
evening
will
____________________
any
absurd
story
which
the
events
of
today
might
give
rise
to
-
do
you
think
now
that
I
am
cold
and
stern
,
and
artful
-
will
even
others
____________________
so
,
will
your
mother
even
-
that
mother
to
whom
we
must
indeed
____________________
much
,
more
much
more
on
my
part
,
than
she
shall
ever
know
or
can
____________________
.
"
Promises
not
to
love
you
"
ah
Caroline
it
is
past
promising
-
but
shall
____________________
all
concessions
to
the
proper
motive
-
and
never
____________________
to
feel
all
that
you
have
already
____________________
-
and
more
than
can
ever
be
known
but
to
my
own
heart
-
perhaps
to
yours
-
May
God
____________________
____________________
and
____________________
you
-
ever
and
even
more
than
ever
.
yr
.
most
attached
Byro
n
