AFTER
I
learned
I
had
cancer
,
one
of
my
____________________
gave
me
some
advice
.
?
It's
____________________
,
?
he
said
,
?
to
behave
as
if
you're
going
to
be
around
awhile
.
?
I
was
already
way
ahead
of
him
.
?
Doc
,
I
just
bought
a
new
____________________
and
got
a
vasectomy
.
What
more
do
you
want
from
me
?
?
Look
,
I'm
not
in
denial
about
my
____________________
.
I
am
maintaining
my
clear
-
eyed
sense
of
the
inevitable
.
I'm
living
like
I'm
dying
.
But
at
the
same
time
,
I'm
very
much
living
like
I'm
still
living
.
Some
oncologists'
offices
will
schedule
____________________
for
patients
six
months
out
.
For
the
patients
,
it's
an
optimistic
signal
that
the
____________________
expect
.
?
Herbert
Zeh
,
my
____________________
in
Pittsburgh
,
says
he
worries
about
patients
who
are
inappropriately
____________________
or
ill
-
informed
.
At
the
same
time
,
he
is
upset
when
patients
are
told
by
friends
and
____________________
that
they
have
to
be
optimistic
or
.
?
My
personal
take
on
____________________
is
that
as
a
mental
state
,
it
can
enable
you
to
do
tangible
things
to
improve
your
physical
state
.
If
you're
optimistic
,
you're
better
able
to
endure
brutal
chemo
,
or
keep
searching
for
late
-
breaking
medical
____________________
.
Dr
.
Zeh
calls
me
his
____________________
boy
for
?
the
healthy
balance
between
optimism
and
____________________
.
?
?
But
I
love
that
my
vasectomy
doubled
as
both
appropriate
birth
control
and
an
optimistic
gesture
about
my
____________________
.
I
love
driving
around
in
my
new
convertible
.
I
love
thinking
I
might
find
a
way
to
become
the
one
-
in
-
a
-
million
guy
who
beats
this
____________________
-
____________________
____________________
.
?
